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2004-12-13T06:35:00.000-08:00

Been reading an extremely novel full of twist n turns n latin this few days... My god its WONDERFUL!!!
I thought for a moment juz now... would i have done things differently if i were to have a second chance choosing my path again... I wld hv... Wldnt I? But seems like we dun have much choice... I would have love to study subjs i think i love... but practicality took the better of me. How many people get to do what they really love anyway?
Would you live your life differently given a second chance?
Well no point thinkin abt tt qn coz there never is a 2nd chance.. What i can do though.. is start to make a difference... Can i do it? Haha... so funny to think about it, sad too... Too bad i dunno what i really want! Maybe i know.. n just cant face the fact that what i want is not possible, thus i refuse to acknowledge it? I dont know. Highly possible though!
Nearly forgot what i wanted to type down... Sometimes i thk many people around me, esp me... lacks a certain passion in things, but mayb we're just not comfortable with expressing our feelings.. Afraid to b wrong? to be judge? to be laughed at? or just refuse to let people know about us? Well, that's what i feel. Dunno abt the rest though. Or mayb.. we just dont have the courage to be different...

2004-12-08T04:10:00.000-08:00

Pretty slack week for a start, no tuts n labs... Pretty cool too, to me it seems to have made the sky so much clearer n bluer!! Haha really puts a smile on my face looking at the wonderful sky! Brightens up the day u know;)
Saw one of the most prettiest sight today! Haha ok at least to me :) Clouds w the slightest tint of grey against a beautiful shade of blue haha... i hv no idea how to express it in words.
Seems so weird how many things we fail to notice around us, so many lovely things and ppl.. Never realise i can feel so cheered up when i c my frens again hehe.. Guess that's the way it is..

2004-11-28T05:02:00.000-08:00

Hee back to blog again. Went for a walk in the park alone after having dinner w my honey. Well I've to say im surprised by how nice a walk can be. There's not much to see really, all shadows and trees, but the air's so cool it really freshens me up. Its so nice, like there's a cool film of air on my skin:) And its all quiet around.. i wish there's no sound of traffic though, spoilt the feelin u know. But the best part other than the coolness is the beautiful sky! I can never describe how the sky makes me feel. Its simply one of the best thing in life!
Haha i guess i sound rather stupid. Feel so sorry for anyone reading my blog...
Hehe i should do that often, clear my mind n stuffs haha...
One week to the start of a new semester. Gotta enjoy wat's left!

2004-11-24T19:58:00.000-08:00

Whoa long time since i've blogged...
Hee been working this few days, extremely slack job i gotta say. I felt like i juz spent most of my time reading and listenin to my cds and day-dreaming u know haha.... in the lovely environment of Changi Airport transit area!! All i've to do is sit there and count how many ppl take the brochures from 4 racks. Sittin on the steps and hvin 4 racks to look after is probably the only sad part abt it, still nice though. Just that my butt hurt from all the sittin haha:p ( Some of my frens only hv 1 rack to look and comfy chairs!!! Haha.. ) Hee n i finish reading 2 bks over the 5 days haha... See how free im. *winks*
I saw this huge bunch of japanese teens one day, about 100 of them, all in their nice uniform. I noticed that almost all the girls hv nice hair!! Like all of them rebonded their hair or sth, n got it cut w style u know, like those hairdos in Jap magazines.. n they hv really nice bags haha... Its obvious they take alot of care of their looks. Makes me think that it'll hurt to b ugly over there:p Well dun get the wrong idea, im not envious or wat :p
2 more days n i'll hv a wk's break before hols end... then its back to sch.. hope next sem's gd. Hvnt done much this hols, when im not workin im mostly cooped up at home..

2004-11-08T21:04:00.000-08:00

Felt like i screwed up the holiday. Kinda felt like crap now... Hopin' typin out can make me feel better haha... but all i hv to do is to stop thkin abt it.
So stupid to b troubled by nth...
Felt like a selfish bitch sometimes... guess im one. A useless and jealous one.

2004-11-02T07:02:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.. today, is a nice day :) Time well spent! Borrowed 4 novels from the tampines library so that i wont b bored hehe... but now.. eyes are too tired to continue readin, so taking a rest. Currently reading Taking Lives by Michael Pye. Not bad so far... Kinda sad i didnt watch the show. But i feel that its kinda similar to Talented Mr Ripley... just that in this novel the character takes up more identities. Talented Mr Ripley really gives me the creeps... the guy... is sick! haha dunno y am i so freaked by the show... probably coz it gave me a strong sense of insecurity? Or mayb juz chilled by how scary humans can b.. haha wonder if the story is real or not.

whew

2004-10-28T07:32:00.000-07:00

Whoa so slpy now. If i can lie on the bed i'll juz fall aslp straight...

Been listening to so many phonecalls my ear hurts!!! Thank god tml's my last day doin this!! Or my ear... gonna become swollen i thk haha... and i've noticed that i've the urge to say 'good afternoon/morning, im callin on behalf of...' when i hear my house phone ringing haha... Really understand wat's 'xi guan chen zi ran' now hehe...

While on the bus this 2 morning listening my cds, i realise Great music + Great scenes really evokes very strong feelings! Such a nice feeling it brings!

I wonder if anyone ever gaze up upon the dark blue sky at night and feel a rush of excitement flowing in their body... i feel this way often, thus i love nights hehe... Sometimes really make me feel like the happiest girl in the world!

Forget Vulnerability

2004-10-26T08:32:00.000-07:00

Whew 2 days of workin passed w nothing bad happening or interestin happening. The job itself, is a really boring slacker job.. all i hv to do is call and ask if the guy's goin to some seminar or tell the guy wat the seminar's abt. Thank god its only 5 days. My lips are dry from all the talking haha... believe i dialed more than 250 phonecalls per day:p Haiz really hope i can find a job straight after this job but it prove to b impossible if i dun hv someone introducing me jobs. Its like... a bee in my bonnet haha... keep thkin of wat i can do.
Whatever... call me stupid but i wanna have a better Christmas haha... can buy a nicer gift haha..
Went out w dear dear just now. Perhaps hvnt seen him for quite some time(4 or 5 days?), thus felt v happy!! Such a sweet feeling it gives... felt myself melting and floating at the same time haha....
This hols.. i've come to learn alot of things... found more positivity, lesser vulnerability... thus hope i'll emerge to b more confident and wiser :) and perhaps fare better in my journey to find the real me...

Bored.

2004-10-23T22:24:00.000-07:00

Was reading some of my frens' blogs. Rather nice reading 'em coz u can really c that everyone is UNIQUE! Yeah really agree with some frens.. hols... find that there's nothing much to do... and the days go by... then the hols end... often we end up doin nth, will complain that the hols' too short... But its not because the hols is too short, its because we didnt use the time given wisely.
For me... im really very bored these days... being a boring girl:p there's really nth i can thk of doin other than coming online.... rather sad. Thus will really like to find a job, aint easy though... Looking around, seeing frens w jobs, felt really envious. Coz im just wasting time everyday... while they get to do sth... and make money haha... Haiz.... Hate wasting time...
Thought of doin stuffs i like... like drawing haha.. but the more i draw the worse i get haha... just dun have that talent ba...
Is there nothing else i can do other than complaining?
Got back the results 2 days ago... nothing i can say... disappointed... whatever... nothin i can do... i dun even know wat to feel.
Chill...

desperate-for-money syndrome

2004-10-20T09:09:00.000-07:00

Yeah dunno y my brain keeps thkin abt part time job and money nowadays haha... kinda feel like i hv a 'desperate-for-money' syndrome or sth haha... Went to so many places this 2 days... kinda aimless but no choice. Lucky for me though, thru a fren i got a job! Finally! haha... Sadly its only for 5 days. Better than nth of course! But now im thkin of finding a job for after that job haha... just wanna keep myself working, anyway there's nth else to do. Unless dear dear is also free haha... really feel like goin cycling one of this days. Wait till i earn some money, i'll splurge it wahahaha.... ok i wont. Or.. ok only on some things hehe...
Ok im thkin too much haha... still finding myself a lil weird these days:p dunno y whole mind is preoccupied by the idea of earning money haha... so unhealthy. Its pretty pointless too coz i cant do much abt it...
Met a good fren today. So long since i last saw him.... over a yr already! Mayb that's y the feelin is almost surreal haha... Always nice to c an old fren:)
Nothing much to add... today's quite a nice day i've to say:)

so bored.....

2004-10-18T06:55:00.000-07:00

Oh my i feel so bored!!! Forgot how to entertain myself already, with dear dear working nightshift and so few ppl online, there's simply no point in stayin online too...
Gonna go for an interview tomorrow, hope the job is alrite and i can hv it coz really dun feel like looking... Dunno wat's the job about, but i like its location.. in tampines! So near... but dunno lah.. Hope i get lucky:) Haiz... at least now i've the company of frens who had recently got so fed up by their jobs they quit:p
So everyday is the same routine, kinda tired of this.... When can b life b more interesting... well i shouldnt b complaining... Im given so much already:) Really feel like goin to the beach one of these days... really will do me good, beautiful sky and the sea and the gentle breeze... Wow... how nice;p

SåD ÇàSè.....

2004-10-15T01:12:00.000-07:00

First week comin to an end...
Haiz after so many days im still jobless. Oh so sad... been doin nth this few days, major boredom. Seems like everyone around me had gotten jobs already:( Come online to c so few ppl...... Chk the papers, made a few calls.... still nth. Aint much available that i can do though, most required experience or at least 3 to 6 mths blar blar blar.... Haiz.. well at least i tried finding hehe, not like i juz wait and do nth... How i wish someone hv a job available for me haha.. spare me all the troubles:p Yeah that's how lazy im...
Anyway this few days my honey hv been working... just make days extra long and boring... but im happy that he has a job though:) At least he's spared from my agony:p

håIzZzz....

2004-10-11T05:50:00.000-07:00

Here to complain again haha... Hols here, first day of hols, I c a frenzy of job-searching all around.... In fact, most of my friends got themselves jobs already. Not me though:p I juz wonder how come everyone seem so intent in getting jobs this time round. Its almost like a MUST... Of course i need to find one too, need da money! Haha.... kinda like desperate:p Feel kinda helpless too (adrift the deep blue sea wahahaha..) and so useless, coz always so dependent on friends. Hate this feeling, totally ruin the holiday mood haha... So i was feeling all stupid and all day haha... dunno wat to do. Watever... its only the first day of hols n im feelin stressed haha.... hehe guess i can slack all hols for all i care.. only i care abt the money wahaha... haiz too timid:p

Finally Free......

2004-10-09T10:18:00.000-07:00

Yeah finally free!! Was so tired after today's paper. Wrote 3 hrs nonstop, always so slow doin this paper, probably coz its open book. Really find 3 hrs papers very tiring, and all our papers are 3 hr....
And so i was so tired when i reached home after hangin out a while watching frens play pool. Slpt straight from around 6 to 10 plus haha.... so shocked, didnt realise i was gonna slp that long. But its really a nice long slp. Now relaxing in front of the computer listening to songs. Whoa.... wat a great way to pass time!
Was reading song lyrics a while ago, felt how much words and music together and express:) A fren told me old songs bring back memories, yeah i agree definitely...

fìNå|ly...

2004-10-07T07:24:00.000-07:00

Yeah finally only one paper's left! Im in holiday mood already! haha.. Really had a tough time studying this few days, crammin in loads n loads of info... its like trying to hold many apples in my hands at once, got this, lost that haha... juz cant help losin the mood to study tonite:) Well ya kinda guilty that im not studying now though but when i dun hv the heart to do sth, im juz distracted by everythg:p
Still feeling very tired now due to the lack of slp, dunno to study for saturday's exam later or to slp. But im very hyper today after the OC2 paper even though i know i did very badly for it... dont feel like blaming myself coz i put in my effort already, juz hv no idea how to do so many qns... To thk it WAS one of my stronger subjects haha... makes me sad, so not gonna thk about it. Hope other papers are alrite... things (my grades) are gettin so grim these days... Wonder wat happened :p Probably damaged all my brain cells.
During the muggin period kept thking of wat im gonna do this holiday, nth fun of course. Dun seem to know how to make life more interesting than this... Haha i sound like im so bored of life but im not:) Just dunno how to make it better.. Haiz surely gotta go work to get some cash, juz dunno wat to do. Hate hunting for jobs coz i dunno how to. Always relied on friends and connections. Watever, at most i'll slack at home for 2 mths wahahaha....
Ok that's about it. Wish myself luck for this saturday, gonna need alot of it:p *wink*

StüDy StüDy StüDy....

2004-09-29T08:21:00.000-07:00

Hmmm... now taking a break from all the notes... really damaging to health haha... After a day of studying i still feel that im slacking haha... Hmmm... what does it mean... probably my brain is spoiling, thus sent the wrong signal;p Need to work extra hard this time, hvnt do well for any subj so far so its quite sad for me... Wonder what's the problem, probably i enjoyed life too much haha... So much so that its more difficult for me to study now.
Went to Bedok Reservoir yesterday! Had a nice time haha... Especially when i get to go there on honey's bike! Get to enjoy music too! haha.. so sweet of him to thk of that. But i can c its really tiring for him, cycling with such a heavy load haha:) It was the first time i celebrated mid-autumn festival by the reservoir so its quite fun:p It's the first time i celebrated it with so many frens too:) So we're playing w the candles and fire and stuffs and the guys kept trying to create 'explosions' haha... Actually im afraid of loud noises so i jus try to stay away and stick to my fire:p In a while its 10plus already and we had to go.
Quite a nice experience:) so im glad i exchanged my study time for that;)

StüDy wÉêK...

2004-09-28T02:45:00.000-07:00

Study week!!! But cant really get my brain to stop playing and start studying haha... In fact, im goin out in a while with a couple of frens!! Well, i m kinda guilty.. and i was watching The Butterfly Effects yesterday morn!! Talk about slacking... im gettin' incorrigible :p
Well, Butterfly Effect is a nice show! It talks about a guy who has the power to go back to his past thru his journal to change things, only everytime he makes things worse... Yeah this guy is Ashton Kutcher, gotta say he looks kinda cute even with his beard haha... Poor thing seeing him bleed everytime he wakes up from a trip to the past. I thk the ending is very disturbing. Didnt expect he'll sacrifice himself (his mom's miracle) in order to right things. The funny thing is, upon commenting the haunting ending to a few of my frens who watched the show in theatre, i found that the ending wasnt the same in the VCD and wat was shown in theatre haha... Lucky i didnt watch it in the theatre then, coz i really like the ending in the VCD, beautiful and sad... But it IS disturbing!! The image of the foetus stuck with me for quite some time...
Yeah that's all for now... oughtta be studyin haha...

nothin' much....

2004-09-24T07:56:00.000-07:00

Gee tonite is a boring nite haha... allowed myself to rest today, after today really gonna start mugging... my grades are really.... gettin' depressing... Tonight msn seems to b extra quiet, so few ppl online, kinda think they've all gone studying... Went out with dear dear today, feels like a long time since we went out but its not, cant seem to rmb when was the last time we went out... doesnt matter though;p Haiz talked abt some stuffs today, kinda crushed me for a while. Felt so sorry. But still i enjoyed the day :) and it feels very funny to have so many ppl asking me 'Goin' out ltr?' when they saw me this morn haha...
Was goin to watch a vcd tonite, but the tv is not available yet :( Joanne lent me her Butterfly Effects! Erm... i didnt get the title wrong rite? haha... intended to watch that show then, but missed it... so now im looking forward to watchin that. Should be a nice show:) Anyway she said its nice so i thk i'll enjoy it as much:) Too bad though, after tonite i might not have time for it le... c how it goes...
Oh my i sound so boring tonite.. but... was i ever interesting? Haha...

RêLåXèD :)

2004-09-23T08:33:00.000-07:00

Yup tonight im juz relaxing :) No proj and tests, tut done... That's y came to update my blog:) gotta take a rest... The presentation went ok (juz me, nth exciting), but the wait for my turn was nerve-wrecking;p So glad its over... hope i can do well for Jap though hehe...

Gotten back my OC paper today, first time i got so low, felt so disappointed coz its like the only subj i can score a lil better in. Haiz... Perhaps shoulda studied more, i sorta forgot all the smaller details :( but its k coz i cant change anythg, juz gotta learn from my mistake hehe... Dun wanna let grades rule my mood haha...

Tml will be a good day hehe... that's all for now!

HÖT dåy....

2004-09-22T08:04:00.000-07:00

Today's so hot!! Haha... well im still maintaining a happy mood :) c how long i can keep the record hehe... Been busy as usual this few days, coz of the quiz n my proj. After tml i'll have one worry lesser! But i still hvnt memorise the stuffs that im gonna say tml. I'd say the Jap teachers are really kinda fussy about presentation, gotta smile, gotta memorise everythg n say everythg correctly to get A, gotta hit 4 mins n not exceed 5 mins haha, if we hold cue cards we are supposed to write everythg in japanese on it... ya the memorising part is the toughest, and for someone like me, its gonna be a great challenge! Wish me luck!
Today's a fine day though, even though i fell aslp during tut while sittin' right in front of Mr Ko *oops!* :p The HPI quiz should be alright, so im happy abt it :) Went out with Joanne and Lingwei after quiz to enjoy cool bubble tea while having a nice chat, its real nice, and we talk abt many many thgs. Afterthat i had to go back to sch to wait for the AGM thgy to start, which was at a horrible timing....7pm!!! But with the company of my 2 good frens, Hui n Weiling, time passed swiftly :) Come to think of it i'd known them for 6 yrs already!!! Such a long time.... So its more talking again, but its wonderful... and relaxing haha :)

BüSy AgåïN....

2004-09-20T07:55:00.000-07:00

Yup another busy week for me :( but im glad to say that im happy haha... who knows y :p
Hvnt even prepare for the listening test for Jap tml.... haiz... dun feel the mood to study that already, maybe its coz common test is over! haha... i actually rather read HPI or AIMM haha... actually seemed more interesting to me... hmmmm... think there's something wrong with me!! Well the interest will last only for 3mins or so i guess;) Let's hope i can cram in Renal, Hepatic and Endocrine tml nite... Thank god nervous's not included or i'll suffer from a nervous breakdown.... Arrgghhh cant really find time to study during weekdays, still hvnt do anythg for my Jap proj poster other than print out 6 pics at the Cybercentre which cost me $2.50!!! 6pics that fit into 3 pgs. $2.50!! I can enjoy a lunch w that haha... Looks like the Cybercentre is really making some money:p Now juz hope the proj will go on well... then Jap will belong to the past hahaha.... yeah hope i dun giggle while presenting.... the whole class will thk im a freak!
Ooops gettin' hungry haha.. gotta go!

BäD DâY

2004-09-17T08:37:00.000-07:00

Today is a really sucky day for me. Now i can feel wat is meant by feeling low, felt like my heart is weigh down by some sickening stuffs. Well its not that bad, juz that talked abt some stuffs with dear dear juz now. Probably cant say today sucks, coz its the semester that sucks. Trying hard to cheer up. Feel so lonely some times, esp in the presence of many ppl. Dear told me i shouldnt say that its good to be lonely at times, i want to tell him its not loneliness that is good, its being alone at times that is good. Gives us time to think and be at ease with ourselves. Being lonely in the presence of friends, on the other hand, gives a really bad, empty feeling. I think im really missin out something, probably i've to be more cheery. I hate feeling depressed so often.

Read a friend's friendster just now, in the section that describes who he wanna meet, he wrote something like this:
somebodie tat makes me feel loved...
somebodie to hug me when I’m down...
somebodie to surprise me with a kiss and make my day...
somebodie to watch telly together on the sofa till we fall asleep...
somebodie to hold my hands and walk down the street without a care...

I like it alot.. its so sweet, especially the last two lines....

ƒRïDâY...

2004-09-16T08:12:00.000-07:00

Today's an alright day, quite relaxed. Not good to be relaxed though.... shows that im still slacking.... Practised a lil of oral presentation for nx thurs during class today. Geez... as usual i was busy gigglin in between sentences. Always get this way when i've to present.... hate it to the core!! But i really dunno how to help myself. Need more practice but how?? Wonder how m i gonna survive the presentation. Hope i wont giggle then. Ya it sounds stupid but it has always been a nasty problem to me. Still remember a good fren of mine, always gave me support when i was speakin in class back then when we were in the same class. Really grateful, coz not many ppl show me this kind of encouragement. All because it sounds like a stupid problem, it probably is a stupid problem to everyone else, only its not to me.

SïnK ör SwîM...

2004-09-15T07:36:00.000-07:00

Yeah they say it's sink or swim at a crucial point.... but i felt like i've been floating too long.... in fact, im still floatin... jus hope i wont sink yet :p Ya ya here's a entry to allow me to complain about all the stress i feel. Been pretty stressed up lately, all the projects, datelines, quizzes, and the exams... drivin' me nuts :( I know its the same for everyone... so hopefully we all dun fall sick under all this strain. Felt like my life's kinda in a mess lately haha... too disorganised. Too much to do, bad time management. I feel like im in a pressure cooker alot of the time... first time i felt so very vulnerable. I guess its bcoz im not prepared, ya my fault. But i wanna blame it on the short duration of the term:p i felt like only a few weeks hv passed since the term break. No time to really psyche myself for the exams and it's here already. Everythg so 'wonderfully packed' together:p Geez... gotta pull myself tog and increase the efficiency of my brain!

And thanx to stupid stress and my inability to stay awake during lec, which adds on to my guilt and stress, i've been gettin sad and mad and bothered extremely easily nowadays.. Poor dear dear have to tolerate my unreasonable outbursts.... so sorry... I really am.... thanx for still being there for me... ;)

Okok enough of my complains..... That's all for now ;p

bÜsÿ WêeK... SpëçiåL dÄy...

2004-09-12T07:21:00.000-07:00

Whoa its been an utterly busy busy and stressful stressful week.. endless studying killing my brain cells... no time to rest and play, thus no bloggin'... but i forgot y was i so busy already:p better that way though.. now im still lacking sleep:p Had a busy and nice weekend too, went to see my mom off at the airport yesterday after i went to sch. Had to leave even before my proj discussion ended:p so sorry.. Afterthat went ice-skating at jurong haha... it was fun! Well it was my first time too and i fell twice. If my dear didnt hold on to me firmly i'd hv fell even more terribly. Wonderful experience! Though i hvnt learn how to skate:p kinda like a slow learner hehe... I'd love to be there again:p So cool n cold;)

Today is a very very special day to me! Had a great time too :) Dear dear gave me 2 really really sweet and beautiful presents! Love 'em! Thanx! This weekend is so awfully short... well well... i guess time really flies when u're having fun ya;)

Hope the new week would be better!

NòthïN' mÜçH

2004-09-04T09:01:00.000-07:00

Today's saturday.. spent the whole day at home with my tutorials and the computer.. doin a summary of findings for the acad proj. That's y nothin' much... dun mind though, sometimes stayin at home is better than goin out. I do want to go out with someone very much haha.. but it doesnt matter anymore:p
Was talking to a friend abt many ppl being shallow nowadays, i dun mean to say that im not, but i do thk more than others do... well that does not necessary make me any deeper than them. Just that they nv seem to be thinkin abt many things... like life and stuffs, like what we're living for. But perhaps they already have the answer. For me, i hvnt. However, we both agreed it's sometimes good to thk less, coz we'll b happier;)
Ok forget abt all that stuffs.. yesterday i was watchin our dear lecturer Mr Alvin Poh play soccer with the boys, kinda funny, i cant even tell who's from whose team coz they're all in red! Haha.... Anyway i feel that its rather nice that the scary alvin poh is playing w his students:)
Btw, i feel that the view of TP's field, the trees behind and the sky forms a beautiful pic in the evening! Beautiful colours:)

fRïDäY☺

2004-09-02T09:07:00.000-07:00

So tired.. this week is really very busy for me.. Felt time running out everyday... Luckily its Friday already, at least this busy week is over, so is the Jap speaking test. It was pretty nerve-wrecking and i commited a few mistakes... sadly haha....
Today's dance class was pretty fun towards the end haha... even though i wasnt able to do all the steps.. seems like there's sth wrong w my coordination haha... It ended at 8... sad time...
Im so sleepy now, tomorrow there's the minutes taking test, hope it wont be difficult, hope i can catch wat they're saying:) let's just hope next week will be better, less work, more time please... :)
That's all for now... slpy slpy slpy.....

MòÑdäY....

2004-08-29T20:00:00.000-07:00

Busy weekend... hvnt finish many things... the Jap proj is gonna be a huge prob to me.. But at least the AIMM quiz is over! Feel a lil better already:) But i made alot of mistake... arrgghhh wat's done is done, no use dwelling over it le. Now im in the PC lab, juz printed out stuffs for my CSAS. Felt that something is wrong with our topic and the content but cant pinpoint wat.. jus hope everything will be fine:) This morning's AIMM lab is a breeze.. i was thinkin how would it be like if i were to work in an immunology lab in the future :p Cant imagine...

Joanne gave me an interesting quote the other day.. "He who kisses the joy is it flies lives in eternity's sunrise." She asked me for my opinion on the quote... We both find the sentecnc a bit odd, but i think the person is trying to say that when a person embraces happiness, he is optimistic and filled with hope... as though he is experiencing the joy and hope that a sunrise give us in every single second of his life... That's my interpretation of the quote, dunno if it's correct or wrong:p Really would like to hear different ppl's interpretation haha... Anyway, the quote gave me a really nice and contented feeling, like i can see the sunrise in it:) So beautiful...

Okok... that's about it for now.... ;)

.......

2004-08-27T05:59:00.000-07:00

So so bored now... kinda disappointed too.. today didnt turn out as well as i hope it would. Doesnt matter, used to this.. But i know i probably cant go out anymore for the next 2 wks or so... Its kinda sad but there's really not much free time left, there's so much to do! Hmmm i sound childish dont i haha... Not that i wanna go out that desperately... doesnt matter doesnt matter.. i hope it really dun matter...
Always thought i should nv look forward to things too much so that i can avoid disappointments haha... I hate disappointments, whether big or small... they make me feel awful. Just like my term test results haha.... tried so hard, in the end... Made me feel so demoralised and disappointed.. Well well, i'll just have to work harder nx time... Just that cant find much motivation to study.. Room being occupied most of the time by my cousin, tv on most of the night... this are juz excuses i know... But the tv is really a major distraction haha, that's y i hate it sometimes :p
Now at a friend's house... nth to do... was sitting beside my dear for the past few hours watchin him play mj... feel kinda redundant. I could hv chose not to come, but i couldnt bear to.. Feel so slpy now!!!
How i wish im at the beach now... enjoying the beautiful sky and feeling the wind on my skin... Ok i should wake up and stop dreaming haha...

Sö HäPPy!!

2004-08-26T06:35:00.000-07:00

Yeah tomorrow's Friday!! Get to go at 1pm instead of 6pm haha...
Today was a long day for me... 9am to 7.30pm... 6 to 7.30 was my dance lesson, but the instructor came late so we were released at 8 instead.. Hmmm... the dance lesson is those temporary kind, and i suck at dancing but i enjoy it:p Jap was nice today, learnt quite a number of adjectives that is really useful:) now i can describe some basic stuffs. Its gonna be useful for my Jap project too.. Come to think of it this weekend will be quite busy for me, coz i've to hand up my Jap project draft nx week, there's the speaking test to worry about and there's bound to be stuffs to be done for CSAS.... but the worst thing is the AIMM test. After all this time, i've grown fearful of AIMM coz im v bad at it... gee.. this reminds me of what jeremy choo said to me the other day during tut :( aww... scares me still.... muz hv done badly for the term test :( Whatever.. not gonna let it dampen my spirits!

2nD ÉnTry...

2004-08-25T08:42:00.000-07:00

Long day again... 15 mins to midnight, feeling tired already..
Read my good friend's email in the forum just now, she told me her sis went to London, with the intention of staying there for 6 mths on a holiday. Of course she'll be working too. I really admire her sis's courage to persue her dream and to embark on a journey to a foreign place on her own... On her own!!! She'll be totally free!! I dun thk i can ever do that (even though i feel like doin that)... sounds really exciting, but definitely scary haha... Come to think about it, I never dare to persue my dreams, but then im not sure wat my dreams are too... yeah kinda sad:( but i guess im not that special, as much as i wanted to be hehe... ;)
Tomorrow's another long day.. but im looking forward to Friday:) Classes will end at 1pm for me! Finally a short day haha.. hvnt any idea how im gonna spend it... dun wanna waste it for sure;p
Now listening to the Perfect 10 haha.. been so long since i last tune in... such a nice feeling it gives me;) getting slpy, gotta go!

LoNg DaY...

2004-08-22T20:54:00.001-07:00

Yeah it sure is a long day for me, but its slack too... thanx to the many breaks we have. Didnt know wat i did the whole day, but i was aware of falling asleep during lecture haha... and hearing my fren test us on the poisonous pills IQ qn haha. That lil qn proved that my IQ aint that high:p Wasnt very happy this evening due to some reasons. This got me into thinking y should i be so upset because of something like that. There are so many things in this world that matters so much more. But i just cant control how i feel... However, as a student i guess that's normal and good in its way, its my responsibility afterall. So i was really feeling very low, so glad my dear was there for me, so patient, trying to cheer me up, really gotta thank him :)
A friend of mine showed me the lyrics from the song The Middle by Jimmy Eat World just now, it was really encouraging :)
Read someone's blog just now.. yeah i agree really, CSAS sucks! Haha..

Intro...

2004-08-22T20:54:00.000-07:00

This is the first time im posting a blog online! Dun really know what to write, today is not the best day to start either... Im finding it kinda odd that watever i write down here will be seen by others haha... but i guess i'll get used to this. I dont know what do people normally write in their blogs, but i know mine may get kinda personal and weird, coz im the kind who thinks alot:p